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{Sunday, October 15, 2006 @ 10/15/2006}

im sorry. im really sorry. i dont know how to say everything. thers just alot and you will never understand. im speechless. i.. in my life, its the other way around, m. you had a new life. i just thought, i needed to stay out of it, m. i seriously did not forget you, i did not. not you or wan, but honestly, i was upset. sometimes seeing you around and not talking like old times make me feel really down. i mean it, m.when i see you in school with your friends, i just feel like im in another world where you dont include me. i dont know if i should continue crying and sobbing all the way, but i know nothing will do any good now. why didnt i myself tried making things like old times eh? why didn't i. and if you ask me, m, ive never. never ever have forgotten abt our past. you made my childhood. dont you remember, i used to go to your place everyday, m. everyday and this might sound silly, but i didnt know how to clean myself after i poo? yes poo. how can i forget that, m? we were really young. you've been my only best friend since small who ive never stabbed in the back. so i might sound like im talking shit, but im not, m. i do care for you if thats not what you think. you are still in me. i thought I wasnt in YOU, m. i just dont know what to say anymore. thers tons going in my mind, im so confused, i feel really stupid. it doesnt matter how high or low in standards my friends are. you'll be one of the best. why? you did make my childhood, m. how cn i ever let the memories just fade away? bcause of other friends, m? no, m. you're part of me, i just dont know how to make everything like old times again. i just don't and im sorry.

it doesnt matter if im telling the world abt my life now. this post is worth for you, moomzy.
wan, im sorry.