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Nadj, 15, Kuake says: i like it when you dont mean to make me smile.
Syu,You dont know me and you dont care. 16.
Stories
{Monday, November 27, 2006 @ 11/27/2006}
i cant get it off my mind. yesterday was just, one hell of a day? but the thing is, i dont know. if im to be happy abt that one time or not. as tired as i can get, its still in my mind. what was i thinking. why didnt i do it and smhow it feels so impossible to share it with anyone. or maybe, thers just no one. so i screwed up when i was singing. wasnt how it was spose to be. it wouldve been better if i wasnt shaking. i let them down. but it couldnt get any worse than that one time where it was only us. there was five at first. but as the day grew brighter, they left one by one and sooner, it was just us. i was that stupid to let go of my chances. why did i let go? we were, quiet. the view was pretty. so was he. but what in the world did i have in mind! the more hes closer to me, the more i try to let go of my chances. but when he leaves, i want them back. i want him back. something's wrong and its never gona be fixed if i dont start talking. i was THAT stupid. now he'd never know.
