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{Thursday, September 28, 2006 @ 9/28/2006}

sometimes i wish, that i was an angel,

a fallen angel, who visits your dreams,

and in those dreams, i'd blow you a message,

that says 'you really want me'.

sometimes i wish that i was a wrestler,

a mexican wrestler, in a red vinyl mask,

and i might grab you and body slam you,

and maybe cause, physical harm,

but when we would land, i might take pity on you,

i could crack all your ribs, but i cant break your heart.

You will never love me,

and this i cant forgive,

that you will never love me,

as long as i will live.

sometimes i wish that i was a beauty,

a beautiful girl, the popular one,

and i'd turn your head and your friends would love me,

and i could afford to play hard to get,

we'd go to parties and you'd show me off,

then i'd go out with your best friend.

you will never love me,

and this i cant forgive,

and it will always bug me,

as long as i will live,

you will never love me,

why should i even care,

it's not that your so special,

you're just the cross i bear,

you will never love me,

and this i cant forgive,

and it will always bug me,

as long as i will live.

Lyrics from Emma Roberts(addie singer from unfabulous)-Mexican Wrestler......altho some parts of the lyrics is humourous, but still deep....especially if youve seen the episode for this one....damn~ i cried uncontrolablely! and now i still feel her pain......even if that was about early of last year already......And for some reason i keep getting people shooting me with the questions about love....honestly, ppl i dont know.....maybe the cause of no getting love in return had made me numb of making my mind if im actually in love or just infatuated....thats why i honestly answer you guys.....i simply dont know.....so yeah~ probrabbly till the time i get love in return, then maybe i could understand a little bit something about my feelings towards so called 'love'....

okay, enough about love! exam is coming up in about a week and few days, but still some lil evils keep popping up in my little heart to not study! sshheesshh~ eventho im really freaking scared for whats coming ahead....

And oh....guess what? i was totally emberassed in class just now....*sigh* long story, better heard then seen from computers.....ahahaha! then while waiting for my car just chatting about with the guys infront, there was a car infront of us.....with a guy tapping on the window.....i looked at the car and finally to found my long lost friend making an ugly face to me! ahhahaha! that was funneh dude....and now for some reason we just cant stop messaging each other about "pizza" and "duit raya"? hahahhaha! wierd~ ( i bet if your reading, you'll know! hahahhaha! crazeh dude~ muahahaha!)

well~ i have loads more things to share....but thier not that interesting unless u guys were there.....heheheh! =D so yeaahh~ that all folks~

Happy advance bday NADJ.....finally ur 15....heheh! =p